A Chewing of the Word

Right now, my husband and I are going through a rather tough ordeal. Our 3-month-old son cries excessively and spits up or throws up frequently. He had a test 3 days ago that showed a problem with his esophagus. So, we're in the "in-between" stage. We know something is definitely wrong, but we have no idea what it is. We await an appointment with a GI Specialist and may have to drive 1.5 hours to go to one when there is one 20 minutes from home that is booked.

With this weight on my shoulders, I went to church Saturday night to be filled up. The Pastor was talking about the Word dwelling in us. He used an example of chewing seeds. As I sat here lacking words to describe everything that is resonating in my head, I remembered that Psalm 119 is about the Psalmist's love for the Word. These are the verses that stuck out:

Psalm 119
V.15 "I ponder every morsel of wisdom from you, I attentively watch how you've done it."
V.25-32 "I'm feeling terrible—I couldn't feel worse! Get me on my feet again. You promised, remember? When I told my story, you responded; train me well in your deep wisdom. Help me understand these things inside and out so I can ponder your miracle-wonders. My sad life's dilapidated, a falling-down barn; build me up again by your Word. Barricade the road that goes Nowhere; grace me with your clear revelation. I choose the true road to Somewhere, I post your road signs at every curve and corner. I grasp and cling to whatever you tell me; God, don't let me down! I'll run the course you lay out for me if you'll just show me how."

We can only succeed in going where God is leading in our search for healing for Jule. Pastor Mike anointed Jule and prayed over him. I know that God can heal Him, but if He doesn't, then I know that He will lead us to the Doctor that He has for him. Even if we have a long drive ahead of us, I know that God has our course mapped out for us, and we will benefit by following His course.

Verse 25 "I'm geeling terrible..." is spot-on with what I feel right now. I want my son to be healthy, and I want to take his pain away. I'm helpless beyond what a mother's love can do. So, I will chew on the Word, on every Word, that God speaks to me. Third Day's "Revelation" was playing on the radio earlier today, and that is what I need....a revelation.