Resigned

The dictionary definitions of "resign" are as follows:
1. to give up an office or position, often formally
2. to submit; yield: to resign before the inevitable.
3. to give up
4. to relinquish (a right, claim, agreement, etc.).
5. to give or sign over, as to the control or care of another
6. to submit (oneself, one's mind, etc.) without resistance.

In more than one sense, I have resigned. I never thought that the day would come that I would resign from my State job, and certainly not in the state our economy is in. But, I have resigned. My last day of employment with the State will be 1/6/12. I want to give them enough time for me to train someone to fill my spot. I want to treat my boss with the kindness and respect she has shown me, so I'm giving them a 2 month notice.

The reason I am resigning is because I have resigned. I'm giving myself over to the control and care of the One Who has all things in His control. The One Who loves me the most and has higher thoughts and plans for me than I can ever have for myself. As we sat in church Sunday, my husband and I were both struck with the overwhelming confirmation that, indeed, God was leading me to quit my job. We sat in two different services because I played keys for both services, and he did not make it to the first service with the kids. So, here we were, in two different services (though the same sermon), and God spoke the very same thing to our hearts. When we talked last night, I was almost giddy. I actually would prefer to work...it's easier in some ways. But I know enough to know that obedience to God's nudging will result in what is best for my life, for my family, for my heart. Ultimately, God will do a work that will far surpass what can happen when I take my life path into my own hands.

He has been so faithful to bring us these two little treasures, and it has been a very difficult journey for the past three years with Jule's health, etc. I believe He is about to do something new in our lives, and I believe it will result in some heart and life changes for me. And it all started with a stubbed toe. What seemed to be a huge imposition has turned into the very thing that God spoke to our hearts through. We have asked for wisdom, and He answered. We have stood still and are seeing the the salvation of the Lord.

Daycare is going well for Jule, and my migraines only totaled 7 for the month of October. We have definitely seen some improvements in some things. So, it's not about removing Jule from Daycare, and it's not that my migraines are too bad for me to work. It is about obedience. Sensing a move of God and going in that direction. Stepping out in faith that God will provide all we need. Learning to rely on Him more. We're about to jump off of the cliff in faith, knowing that the mighty hand of God will catch us. Ready for the ride?