Ever Struggle to be Nice?

I am. Right now. Severely. You know how sometimes it takes every fiber of your being to be nice? I'm there.

One of my coworker/friends got a new job and stabbed me in the back on her way out. It was an outright betrayal, and I'm enraged and furious! Now, I know that the Bible says to "turn the other cheek" and to forgive, but I am having a really hard time doing that. Matthew 5:39 says, "But I say, do not resist an evil person! If someone slaps you on the right cheek, offer the other cheek also." Psalm 55:12-14, "It is not an enemy who taunts me—I could bear that. It is not my foes who so arrogantly insult me—I could have hidden from them. Instead, it is you—my equal, my companion and close friend. What good fellowship we once enjoyed as we walked together to the house of God."

Something I've been thinking about is how much easier it is to be hurt by a friend. They simply know more about you...your likes and dislikes, things that have hurt you in the past, things that elate you, your feelings/opinions on various topics. We really do have a lot of power over those we know intimately. On the other hand, we also have a lot of power to bless our friends in ways that those that don't know them can't.

I certainly know that I am guilty of hurting those that I care deeply for, and I need to work through this. Right now, my feelings aren't there, but I will work on it until they are. I'm sorry if this post is all over the place, but it lies in the midst of a war between what I want to do and what I know is right to do. And I do want THE RIGHT ONE to win...I want God to be glorious and radiant in my life. I'm still a work in process....