if you knew me...you would know that i hate watching others live normal lives
if you knew me...you would know that i would rather not be laying on the couch
if you knew me...you would know i would much rather be on the floor playing
if you knew me...you would know that i am so tired of being in pain
if you knew me...you would know that i am terrified to take my kids to the zoo alone
if you knew me...you would know that i want to do and be so much more
if you knew me...you would know that most days i cannot even walk out the door
if you knew me...you would know that i have a migraine right now
if you knew me...you would know that i strongly believe in the one who can cure
if you knew me...you would be my friend even though the pain can make me unreliable
if you knew me...you would know i would do almost anything to be able to be there for u
my heart hurts tonight because the pain is just so frequent and all consuming. i feel so alone so often. i struggle to do the simplest tasks that most do easily. i do not live in my own strength because it is not something i have a lot of. i live on the manna he provides. i live...i survive...hoping for what i do not see...praying for what does not yet exist...clinging to the knowledge that he does see and hear and care. i do weep...but i also rejoice in the fellowship of his suffering.
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Oh Heather, this makes my heart hurt for you. I've suffered from migraines but obviously not as frequently as you have but I do understand how painful and consuming they are.
I'm sorry you haven't been able to find a suitable treatment as of yet.
I'll keep you in my prayers.
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