The past few days have been really hard on me. Kevin had to fly to Wisconsin to attend some training for work, which left me alone with the kids. Sunday, I had a terrible migraine, and it was very difficult to care for the kids by myself. Then yesterday, I got a call from Noly's school saying she would not stop crying. I went to get her and brought her to work with me until we went to see the ENT at 3. Last night, Jule slept from 8:30 pm until 10:30 pm and woke up screaming. Despite a diaper change, some pain reliever, and some crackers, he did not calm down until around midnight. My guess is that he was teething again. Everything has felt so overwhelming because I had to do it alone. I wanted to be a good mommy, but I also strive to be a good employee. I'm trying desperately to not miss work, but I keep missing a lot. I thought hard about it yesterday and realized that I can succeed at the most important part...being a mommy, and then just do what I can as an employee. I'm so thankful for an understanding employer! I'm at work whenever I possibly can be, but my sick little ones have to come first!
Yesterday's verse of the day on Biblegateway.com was Romans 12:12..."Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer." I really tried to focus on the "patient in affliction" part yesterday and held onto prayer to get me through it. I thought about how affliction really does make me more faithful in prayer. When I think about the ocean, I think about the faithfulness of the waves, and it reminds me of God's faithfulness. He never leaves me, even in the affliction. And I'm never truly alone because He is always surrounding me, just like the water surrounds me in the ocean. My prayer is that I can be joyful in the hope that I have in God, patient in any hardship that comes my way in this world, and faithful in praying to the God of my salvation.
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